Uncertainty

“…much of my writing, I realize, is about uncertainty - the heartbreaking moments when something is not clear, when the situation is changing, when a truth turns into a half-truth and then a lie.  My childhood with its topsy-turvy emotions has, in fact, been a reason to write.  I can lay it squarely on the page and see what it was.  I can understand and see the patterns.  My characters are witness to what I went through.  In each story, we are untangling a knot in a huge matted mess.  The work of undoing them one at a time is the most gratifying part of writing, but the mess will always be there.”   Amy Tan - Where the Past Begins

The last year has involved a lot of letting go, tearing down walls, and entering some darkness I’ve been a little scared to descend into fully.  Untangling, uncertainty, and, yes, a sense of seeing how all of it’s come together, just so.   Seeing the patterns unearth gives me a roadmap that extends in all directions, constellations in a night sky serving as guides while I travel the underworld.